you're not crazy
3am, the baby is on the breast / bottle, the partner is asleep because someone has to function tomorrow, your mother is in another time zone, your friends without babies have stopped texting and your friends with babies are also doing 3am feeds. the identity you had eight weeks ago is gone. the body is unrecognizable. the wellness internet is selling snap-back protocols.
the loneliness of the postpartum year is structural. it is not your failure to have built community. modern parenting is engineered for isolation.