you're not crazy
dedicated week. step 1 in 11 days. you have closed the laptop because reading another biochemistry pathway tonight will not move the needle. your roommate is also studying. your partner is asleep / 1,300 miles away / does not understand the volume. the brain is still spinning. you do not want to talk to a person who will tell you it will be fine.
or rotation whiplash: surgery to psych to peds in 9 weeks, every team a new social game, every attending a new pimp pattern, every classmate suddenly a competitor. the imposter weeks compound. nobody on the team is asking how you are.